Heaven bent to take my hand And lead me through the fire Be the long awaited answer To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best But somewhere along the way I got caught up in all there was to offer And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent Love was raw and young We believed that we could change ourselves The past could be undone But we carry on our backs the burden Time always reveals The lonely light of morning The wound that would not heal It's the bitter taste of losing everything That I have held so dear.
I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bent to take my hand Nowhere left to turn I'm lost to those I thought were friends To everyone I know Oh they turned their heads embarassed Pretend that they don't see But it's one missed step You'll slip before you know it And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
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i'd come for you
another loveeeee from nickelback! =D
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
the woody song.
it's like asking a fish to fly.
it's like a sagging birthday cake.
it's like deleting all the songs that i have nvr heard b4 in my iTunes library.
it's like listening to the songs that will make a person weep.
it's like asking me to do an essay abt stem cells.
it's like im forever sleepy.
it's like no amount of water can quench my thirst.
it's like the tomato hair style.
it's like my tuesday.
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Thursday, October 22, 2009
finally it's thursday.
saturday. saturday. saturday.
mummmyyyyyyy.
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Monday, October 19, 2009
run. as if i have a choice.
take a look of me so u can see how beautiful you are.
im exhausted. drained. jaded. whatever u call it.
but looking at the schedule and deadly deadlines ahead, im dead.
im wishing for the exams to come fasterrrrrrr...........
haha! seriouslyyyyy.....how did i choose modules back then.
for the 1st time, im too tired to cry.
i dun even feel like gg out or doing anything..........
and i miss grassjelly, mum's agar agar, mum's greenbean barley dessert, mum's herbal jelly, mum's soups, my big bed at home, talking to my sis my mum my dad.
i even forgot abt dad's bday. he remembered mine and sent me a lovely msg at 12am. as for me, i needed mum to remind me and sent him a short msg at 12pm.
it's ok. im still a happy gal. =)
at least i still get to sleep 9 hours everyday! =)))))
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
what can i do to eliminate these unpleasant ppl.
seriously.
it's hilarious to see a bunch of ppl. surrounding a pot of burnt food and dunno wat to do. so they kept staring at it, tried to stir it, oblivious of the fact that ppl who lives beside the pantry, me, is suffering.
i dunno how long more can i take these shit from these ppl.
inconsiderate bastards.
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Think when i finally get to see the northern lights, i'll be soaked in tears.
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Friday, October 16, 2009
sorry.
i didnt mean to break my promise and miss the trial.
really sorry.
really. sorry.
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009
i wanna punch DBL!!!!!!!
give me 5.
in 5 days' time, i think i'll feel better. 2mr. proposal due. fri. CA1 due. next mon. essay due. next fri. mid term. next next mon. essay due.
ooooh laaa laaaa~~
my life is so exciting. =( seriously. i need serious psychological counseling frm qualified research assistant.
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Only You
awwwh man! childhood movie!! this rendition of Only You. =))))) haha!
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Monday, October 12, 2009
t w e n t y t w o
it took me 22 years to realise a lot of things.
simplicity is the way to a happy life.
it is not hard to find happy thoughts!
lets see....
1) just when i thought we were gg to have some kueys for supper, i've got a purple cake.
2) i managed to wake up for my LAST TWO POINTS of Research Program! =)
3) the hall installed new shower heater for the toilets! hehe.
4) i finally managed to score more than 216 000 for bejeweled!
5) spent the whole afternoon making a brochure that i love so much. even had to redo it coz photoshop crashed.
6) saw all the wishes and bday messages from friends and family. =) feel loved!
7) had a nice dinner with zoo performance! =)
8) booibeee lee =]
thanks for everything.
Cant wait for thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, October 8, 2009
britney spams.
my all time favourites. =)
but sadly, Embedding is disabled by request for "Lucky". =( i love the mv.
so i can only put the SIMS2 version! =(
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PURPLE HAVIS 11.01.09 - 07.10.09
Poor slippers. R.I.P.
the first present from booibeee. =(((
today is just another rainy day in my heart.
came to be aware of a fact.
depression is like inertia.
it'll just go on and on.
but i dun cry anymore.
refuse to victimize myself further.
i can be my hero.
:+: Styled by :+: Jac Loo Loo 12:35 AM
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Tuesday, October 6, 2009
i need to let myself go.
i cannot say that i did not try hard enough.
but i noe i didnt.
why. i gave up fighting after knowing that the world is in dark. invention of light bulbs was to give us the illusion that the world is no longer in dark. incorrect.
why must i learn to be stronger and deal with these ppl with smiling face. am i not one of them if i was to act like dat.
i told myself i told mike i told my close friends. if i make it this sem. i will continue. i will give my all to this sem.
but what have i done.
i like to waste time. if mike's not ard, i think i'll waste more time.
im a total failure who has no self-discipline.
the only thing that im good at is to cry. whatever happens, just cry. although it wont help i'll juz cry.
woke up late this morning. ran for the bus and nearly fell down. made it to class in time. but i was alr vr down. and since then, it's a downward spiral to a bottomless pit.
i was thinking, if i flunk this sem, next sem can relax. if dats the case. i might as well juz relax in this sem too. then can slack 2 sems.
forget abt honours.
forget abt everything.
i dun want anything anymore.
i dun want to cry anymore.
feel like screaming. even when im in library now. maybe watching heart of greed and cry is one of my excuses to cry.
i noe, i had typed nothing but crap. i still have to go back to do all the fucking sch work. i cant even breathe now. but i still need to pick myself up.
can i let myself go?
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Monday, October 5, 2009
nice song frm moonlight resonance
emo. but im happily emo. raymond lam is cute. but linda chung's cuter =D
p/s. i need to think of a way to make sure that the BIRDS do not scream beside me every 7am.
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Saturday, October 3, 2009
Never Gonna Be Alone
Time, is going by, so much faster than I And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know
You're never gonna be alone from this moment on If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone
And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands 'Cause forever I believe That there's nothing I could need but you So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know
You're never gonna be alone from this moment on If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone
Oh, you've gotta live every single day Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes? Don't let it slip away, could be our only one You know it's only just begun, every single day Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes? Tomorrow never comes
Time is going by so much faster than I And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you
You're never gonna be alone from this moment on If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone
I'm gonna be there always I won't be missing a word all day I'm gonna be there always I won't be missing a word all day
LOVE this song! awwwwh. so sweet. repeat mode had been on for the past hour. LOVE the lyrics. LOVE it more when i think of him. as much as i wanna be an independent gal. im scared of being alone. it scares me. and this song really makes me feel better. =]
i miss mooncake, mum. i miss sitting in the living room, with tv on and i'll paint my toe nails. awwwwh. stop emo-ing. continue plotting graphs. =)
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Heart of Greed 2
it's abt mooncake.
this time i couldnt go back to celebrate mooncake festival with my family. again. thanks to the assignment.
felt really really really sad.
and killed a lot of trees esp when i watch the show.
but i checked the last ep of the show and knew dat it's a happy ending!
=)
=) i'll continue to believe that happy endings are possible.
:+: Styled by :+: Jac Loo Loo 12:45 PM
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Friday, October 2, 2009
my first midterm of the sem
=) woke up at ard 9.30? when i was supposed to wake up at 8 to study!
the midterm was fine but my shakealittle made this day a special one.
felt like crying as im typing this. im an extremely emotional gal.
as i was walking to LT11 for my test, there were so many things on my mind. none of them had anything to do with stats:
shakealittle likes to ask a lot of questions, when we r deciding where and what to eat. and he'll try to figure out where i wanna go frm my responses. coz he noes im not a vr expressive gal.
he'll jump out of classroom with me immediately after class to have a quick meal with me as i only had 20 mins for a meal. i love to buy coffee with him. i like to mix milk tea with coffee. and he remembered the ratio.
when we said goodbye b4 i went off for the test, he forgot to wish me goodluck and so i told him. then he walked a small circle and gave me a pat on my shoulder and said: goodluck. I felt like i have alr owned the paper.
and i felt like i must be the luckiest gal on earth. =]
