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Thursday, March 25, 2010
the hangover procedure.

i dunno why did i cry.

so i'll have to look back and see what had happened thru out this long long day and get all these out of my mind so dat i can work on my 2 presentation n 2 essays next week.

i woke up at 9.30 am, instead of 8. and i felt the constipation feeling + bloatedness shit, a.k.a. pms crap.

at 12.45, i realised dat i forgot to take the cert folder for my interview at 3 at changi. and by then i was walking in super uncomfortable pants n super painful heels for 3 hours alr.

1.40 - 2.05, dats how long i had waited at the bus stop, with a strange yellow bug giving me a very painful bite on my right foot. i thought it a rock so i tried to use my left foot to sweep it away but instead, i smeared the bug onto my shoe, which means my black heels now has a yellow gross stain and i couldnt bend down to clean coz i was holding some stuff and most importantly, the pair of pants was too fitting alr. i couldnt reach the freaking shoe. and may i remind you that my interview is at 3. and i was still in sch.

2.40, i juz reached bedok, a few more stops to expo, and i realised that i only had 8 dollars in my wallet. and i was supposed to cab there.

3.00, reached the building. the journey of 2 minutes costs me $5.60 coz there's a surcharge of $2 if u take cab from expo. i didnt noe abt dat.

3.40, interview ended. it was ok but the PR issue was bugging me as it has been in all my interviews so far.

3.50, coz it was pouring, i had to call a cab. and it had cost me $6.60 coz booking surcharge of $2.50 and NETS surcharge of $0.30. yes. i was out of cash.

4.30. called ica and was told by an unfriendly lady dat i was not eligible for the automatic conversion. which is different from what i had heard frm the career centre.

5.10. felt like a ball, kicked from one department to another ministry to another office to another centre.

5.50. i broke down feeling helpless n lost over nothing.

7.00. i thought my group is scheduled to present in the 1st week of april which is 2 weeks frm now but when i checked the latest schedule, it wasnt the case. my group was pushed forward for a week which means we're gg to present on next wed. hmmmm. and the group 1 that's supposed to present next week was postponed to our supposedly slot.

im stunned coz we havent prepared a single thing. and it's 50%?!

8.00. it's like a downward spiral, sucking the happy energy out of me.

and i have spread my sadness and stress to other ppl by making a big ass out of myself.

most importantly, i dun understand why am i here, pitying myself, instead of doing stg to set things right.

my sis told me, if too busy, dun come back la, i'll bring stuff to u.

i said no, i Need to go back. it's no longer a want.

p/s. i really wish to have my tear ducts removed.

:+: Styled by :+: Jac Loo Loo 8:04 PM

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